Lost in......

Busy day.

Well not really.

Went for a swim, the water is so blue, like the sky like the topaz that i like ;)

One part of me feels sad that my mom is going for an operation.

Another part of me believes in HIM. I believe and have FAITH that no matter what happens HE is always there.

Pictures and words poured into my mind as i swam into the abyss (it felt like the abyss), i tot wow i every thing is going on so well and tranquil.

It drizzled, felt so good as the rain poured down my face.


H ha don't mind me guess i am still human and it hurts a little ;)

David has gone to Indonesia, sigh when i called him he was having a massage.

i tot he would know beta, that he would tell me before letting someone touch him...que sara...

I trust him.

God knows i trust him.


*Hiya* enough of this rubbish~ i had lotsa fun meeting up with my ole TLL friends and had a great time with Alexis, Mae and Skyler..hee hee i should be happy ;)


~he will not fail thee, neither forsake thee, fear not, neither be dismayed.~ Amen

My Dad

Its been a while..hee hee i'm still me and everything seems so surreal.

It's been 1 week and a little sinice i left the company. I miss my friends ;)

Sigh** just talked to my dad about the wedding, he's not happy, who can blame him. On one hand he never got to see the daughter grow up on the other it all just boils down to "face"

My dad

I'm not the typical daddy's gal i must say. I had a relatively happy childhood, dad would buy us stuff and feed us supper.

After my parents div... ha ah i can't even mention the word, i just time heals wound but it takes lots of praying and faith.

I have faith and I believe that we are not alone...

God is with us every step and this wedding is going to be great!!!



I pray that i will learn to love my dad more and to trust God with all my heart and soul ;)



~Relax. God's In Charge------Amen~

Like anOle Laadie

I think that i'm really getting ole.

Every time when it seems to rain i start getting back aches...sigh..

Today was so so busy....can't believe in 2days i will be leaving TLL.

Hmm mixed feelings.

i can't believe i'm getting married in 11 weeks seem like such a short time.....

Thank God for good frens and good times.


*blessed be the LOrd, God Almighty*

Its Almost Christmas!

What's it all about.

Someone told me this story in Camp, re -written by me:

" A young girl Kate, age 5 had been staying with a foster home with her siblings of 5 for 2 years. Her mom is in mental home and her dad is in prison. Kate had never met her parents before.

The mother decided to send presents to each of her children and they waited in anticipation, especially the little Kate.

Christmas came and one by one they started to open their gifts.

Michael, the eldest got a toy plane.
Mary got a doll.
Kevin was given a truck.
Karen got a bear that said " I love you" when you pressed it's tummy.

Kate waited for her turn and unwrap the big box.

Layered by Layer she opened it. Her little face beaming with joy. This was the 1st time mummy had given her some thing.


The box was empty except for a little note that said,






"I hate you and will never forgive you for being born."



Poor Kate, her little heart broke. She screamed and screamed and ran up the stairs into her room.

It took her foster parents 5 hours to calm her down and pray for her.


So what happened to her?


By the grace of God she is now a healthy 18 year old. Spreading the word of God to other people that were in her shoes.

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Point is do we often do things that we think are trivial?

Just a simple note can change a person's life.

And in our daily lives do we choose to live the fate that we think is given to us or do we live by faith?


You decide.

Merry Christmas


*Only constant thing is His never Dying Love + *

ON LEAVEEEEEE

Yippee..... i've going church camp. 7 blissful days of rest..hee hee not that i should complain as i am finally leaving come 31st dec.

Feels really really strange that i will be leavin so soon, will miss all the wonderful people here.

The wedding prep is going find mom said JF is quite good looking, ha ha but told me not to tell David least he get jealous hah ha.
It was really fun seeing Lorreign and Genna running around the house...hee hee.

I miss Jean, wonder what she is doing now.

Will life be un-eventful for me?
Wonder what my options will be?

Guess i just have to pray more and work it....real hard for my Wedding...wash board for the wedding.


-happiness is to know the saviour-

HEAL THE WORLD

Read in the news today about the merger of the 2 stations.

Thought to myself all the drama for the some thing like that.

Most likily it is some marketing hype to "Ra Ra" the crowd.

Alas people get burn life moves on....

Don't know what's wrong with me these days, a part of me feels sad that i would be leaving TLL another part of me is like " hell yeah!!!" ha ha oh well.

Hmmm i wonder if David is going to get the sleeping beauty on ice for me, we shall see if he had remembered...i think the poor guy is very stressed.

Yest someone that i thought was happily married told me that the person and partner are having difficulties in the marriage, i admire this person, cos at work the person never once let personal problems affect .

Maybe it's my calling in some sense :) and i do hope that wherever i go in the world i would be able to share and save some lives.....hee hee...

till then.




~Nothing is impossible , through Him~

D day

Its term 1......... and one more month before i leave TLL.... Jean has left us already in some ways i feel that she had really given me a new outlook on life.

I'm gonna miss everyone here the warmth, the lunches/dinners...the standing (yah rite), no really , i feel connected to the people here ;)

ooh well that's just me, always thought that i had hung my wings up already.

I miss CHL....hmmmm wonder what she is going to by for me..hee hee.

B A R N E Y IS DRIING ME N U T S..........I feel like choking him till he turns blue...
heya but the songs are a little cute lah..

I went to see Skyler the other day, she's my best friend Alexis 3month old kid...really so cute...ha ha she can giggle and laugh already..hee gee...i think it will be so wonderful to have kids but of course i hope to spend time with David first.

I attended Eunice my old friend's nonya cum american...country wedding dinner, it was really romantic and nice i'm so happy for her...

that's all for now.



~my beloved is mine and i am his, his banner over me is love.~